Demi Lovato has recently opened up about her 2018 drug overdose for the first time.
Getting candid about her relapse for the first time, Lovato spoke at length about the circumstances that led her to drug overdose in July 2018.
In a recent interview with Ellen DeGeneres, the 27-year-old singer revealed that she broke her six-year sobriety three months before.
She said her eating disorder (bulimia) was getting “progressively worse,” with “her team checking what my orders at Starbucks were on my bank statements.” Her team kept her from having a fruit and even removed the phone from her hotel room so she could not order room service.
Lovato said. “My bulimia got really bad and I asked for help and I didn’t receive the help that I needed and so I was stuck in this unhappy position. Here I am sober and I’m thinking to myself, ‘I’m six years sober, but I’m miserable. I’m even more miserable than I was when I was drinking. Why am I sober?’”
The “Sober” singer eventually sent a message to her team and confronted them about their behavior.
“My core issues are abandonment from my birth father as a child. He was an addict, an alcoholic; like we had to leave him,” she said.
“And I have vivid memories of him leaving so when [my team] left, they totally played on that fear, and I felt completely abandoned so I drank. That night I went to a party and there was other stuff there and it was only three months before I ended up in the hospital with an OD,” she added.
Lovato continued, “I made the decisions that got me to where I am today. It was my actions that put me in the position that I’m in. I think it’s important that I sit here on this stage and tell you at home or you in the audience or you right here that if you do go through this, you yourself can get through it.” This article was originally published online on InStyle.
